So I haven't updated in a really long time.

Long story short. Camp was amazing. but right now my life is unsatisfactory


I feel like everything's changing and I'm in one of those horrible periods where I can't relate to ANYONE around me. I absolutely loathe it

But Oh well.

And I feel like I've wasted so much time and heart on something that ended out being so useless. I wish it was one of those stories where we just need "time apart to find ourselves." but it's not. He's such a callous person now, and I hate him, but I miss him at the same time, it's learning you're gonna have to find a whole new set of things to love in a whole new person that hurts so bad. That all those little thing you grew to know are gone and going to be replaced. You want to fight it and not accept moving on. But I have now, though it still hurts occasionally.


Oh well.